It still hurts

This was hard for me to do..why? cause it reminded me of when my best friend ditched me. We were friends for 7 years and suddenly she just messaged me saying we weren't friends anymore. It hurt more than anything cause we told each other everything and I didn't know what I did. This wasn't the first time she ditched me, but it was never for good until now. I tried to talk to her in school, but she acted like I didn't exist.    

Sadly, this isn't the first time this happened. I had a friend, Kristin, in junior high who I found out was only hanging out with me because I had a pool. Another one of my friends talked to me a lot in junior high, but ditched me in high school.One always bullied me..IDK what I've been doing wrong to make no one wanna be friends with me. Guess I deserve them leaving me.    

None of them are reading this probably, but if they are, sorry I'm not good enough..

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